Happy Birthday, Jamie!

[wowbright]

So I'd love to have that epic novel done for you today, likeasouffle, but it just ain't happening. Instead, have 642 words worth (ha ha, Wordsworth!) of Kurt Hummel's kind of dirty mostly romantic thoughts during Glee Club the week after, you know, West Side Story opened.

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The closer Kurt and Blaine get when they're alone, the farther apart they sit in glee club.

Because, seriously, if they allowed their chairs to get closer than three feet apart, it would be a hopeless cause. One of them would drop a hand in the space between them and the other would catch it, and they'd sit there, hands swinging happily in the space between them. It would be fine for a moment, comfortable and reassuring, and thrilling only in that they were doing it in front of other people, and that was so rare here at McKinley, outside of this room.

But then Blaine would probably start dragging his thumb along the back of Kurt's hand, or Kurt would slide his fingers up to trace the tendons in Blaine's wrist, and the sense memories would flood them. Kurt would remember Blaine's mouth on his palm, his wrist, his forearm, the thin skin on the inside of his elbow, and Blaine would remember the way Kurt sighed with satisfaction when the edges of their hips touched – and they wouldn't be in the choir room anymore. All the world but skin and body and scent would disappear.

So they make sure not to sit that close. Not for now, at least. Not until they're more used to this.

Though Kurt's not sure he ever wants to get used to it. He has a hard time imagining not feeling breathless every time he glimpses Blaine after any length of absence – 14 hours or 14 minutes, it's all the same. He loves the insane giddiness of it, even if he has trouble concentrating in class sometimes because the slightest thing, or nothing really, will send him off into another world and all he can see is Blaine's flushed face, eyes wide with anticipation, lips trembling and wanting and murmuring Oh God Kurt.

So he keeps his chair far from Blaine's. Far enough so he doesn't, you know, accidentally crawl into Blaine's lap and dry hump him in front of all the New Directions.

The Nude Erections.

Yup, there's a certain nude erection he'd like to see right now.

Fuck. Kurt really needs to get his mind out of the gutter.

But the thing is, where his mind is right now – it doesn't feel like the gutter at all. It feels like something transcendent.

He lets his mind stay there for a second – because Mr. Schue is listening to himself talk right now and won't let any of the New Directions/Nude Erections get a word in edgewise, and Kurt figures he's got at least two minutes before Mr. Schue gets to the point. So he lets that picture of Blaine's nude erection – well, all of Blaine, really, because he can't seem to see part of Blaine now without needing to see him all – stay in his mind. He sees the trail of dark hair beneath Blaine's perfect hollow of a belly button, the line of his hip bone, the grace of his thighs. He thinks of the musky, black-currant taste of Blaine in his mouth, the mineral-earth tang of his sweat, the honeyed salt of his tears.

He glances surreptitiously at Blaine, guiltily hopes that Blaine will look back and know what Kurt is thinking and become flummoxed and moonstruck, both.

But Blaine is dutifully looking at Mr. Schue, and very possibly listening to what he's saying, and fucking hell if Blaine's earnestness isn't as much of a turn-on as his earlobes and his neck and the way his sweater fits closely over his perfect, broad chest. Before Friday night, when Kurt would lean his face against that chest, he thought of it as like the ground – solid and stable. But on Friday night, Kurt was reminded that the ground sometimes shifts and trembles and quakes, and though that can be terrifying, it's breathtaking, too.

Comments

[anxioussquirrel.livejournal.com]

Wow. You take my breath away.

[wowbright.livejournal.com]

Aw. We really ought to stop taking each other's breath away, though. It may get dangerous :)

[likeasouffle.livejournal.com]

Breathplay wee!

[bandearg-rois.livejournal.com]

mainlining you so hard right now... much better explanation as to why they're not next to each other!


(R. talk of sexual congress, but no actual sexual congress)

[wowbright.livejournal.com]

I haven't read any fic that deals with this, though I've read comments from "producers' homophobia" to "RIB's fear of homosociality" to "Kurt doesn't actually like sex" to "Kurt is modest" to "Kurt is clinically depressed" to "Blaine's keeping his distance because Kurt hasn't stood up to Finn on his behalf" to "Blaine has a thing for Sebastian after all" to "Blainchel." None of those explanations really rang true with me, given all that has gone on with the characters up through TFT, and my growing faith in RIB. Plus, I just want these boys to be happy and have fun, loving sexytimes as much as they can, so - yeah, there's my own motives, too.

And thanks for the rating comment. I have such a hard time with rating things. It's important to me because I really want to let people make an informed decision about whether they might be comfortable reading something before they actually read it. On the other hand, I'll read just about anything, so I have no internal gauge for what might be too racy for some - it just doesn't come instinctually to me.

[likeasouffle.livejournal.com]

HAHAHA I have that same problem. When you've read incest, vore, bestiality, and non-con, thinking about dicks in class seems kinda PG.

[wowbright.livejournal.com]

:)

[gleekto.livejournal.com]

Gorgeous! Wow. The last sentence/comment - Blaine was solid but - "the ground sometimes shifts and trembles and quakes, and though that can be terrifying, it's breathtaking, too." - I got such shivers.

I love this time in their relationship - the excitement of the after. And you captured the feeling perfectly. And Blaine's earnestness and Kurt like, 'fuck that' - love it.

One significant criticism - too short. Can't wait for more from you. :)

[wowbright.livejournal.com]

Well, on the last bit, I had all these thoughts for making it longer, but then I realized likeasouffle's/Jamie's birthday would be over by the time I did. So maybe later?

I'm glad you got shivers, because that means it connected. That's just an awesome compliment. It was kind of a scary line to write, but I'm glad I took the risk.

[likeasouffle.livejournal.com]

OMG I love this! Thank you sooo much! I can't believe you wrote me a birthday present! :D :D*smishes!*

That is such a fantastically awesome explanation for why they sit far apart sometimes. I mean it would be one thing if one or both of them was clearly sitting with other friends. Kurt with Mercedes or Rachel, or Blaine with Mike or ...Rachel, chitchatting in the background. But that totally doesn't really happen, so I love the idea that they're both just too irresistible to function.

(Dammit I just had a weird moment where I couldn't think who Blaine's friends were in New Directions. Help me out, there have to be more examples than I'm remembering of chummy moments.)

So he keeps his chair far from Blaine's. Far enough so he doesn't, you know, accidentally crawl into Blaine's lap and dry hump him in front of all the New Directions.
The Nude Erections.

I love everything about this. LOL. (You know I have a thing for dryhumping.) I love Kurt having a dirty mind, and thinking about Blaine's hipbones and happy trail in class. I totally would too. Oh and of course Blaine is paying attention. He's like that.

Or maybe he's not paying attention at all, he's just way better at faking it. Because he's been thinking about sex in class for years. Or maybe he's paying attention because he's totally focused on Mr. Schue's open top button and hand-talking. LOL. I could be into that if Mr. Schue wasn't such a dink. But Blaine doesn't know anything about that yet, so maybe he's all "Mm, collar bone. My choir teacher sure is a smart dresser. I should wear more vests."

ANYWAY. Excellent work. Thank you so very much. Happy birthday to ME! :D

[wowbright.livejournal.com]

Happy happy birthday! And happy whatever to me, because I think your comment might be as long as my fic :)

Blaine's friends: I totally like to think that Blaine and Puck are friends. I don't know if I get this from the show or from lesley_green, but it works for me. And also that he might befriend Quinn, because she's an outsider but doesn't look like one, and he can relate to that.

And, yeah, I don't think Blaine is paying attention at all, or he's only paying half-attention - Kurt's just not a good mindreader yet :)

Happy trails to you!

[nidea.livejournal.com]

Very well done.

I'm glad I'm not the only one who thinks "Nude Erections"!

[wowbright.livejournal.com]

OMG I can't believe you commented on one of my little word paintings! I am beside myself.

[nidea.livejournal.com]

Then one of you's should come visit. :)

[wowbright.livejournal.com]

maybe when both of us are done having our migraines? Sigh.

[judearaya.livejournal.com]

god damn. That was so fucking beautiful. Your way with words, honestly, slays me. I kind of hate your perfection right now, in the most loving way possible.

[wowbright.livejournal.com]

It's my ambition to be great enough to be hated by as many writers as you.

If you ever get a feeling of lack of security, call me on the phone and read a couple of your things to me and I'll give you hatred like you've never gotten before.

I love you, pussycat!

[vicki_rae.livejournal.com]

Yes. This. Beautiful.

[wowbright.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

(Actually, I think your words pretty much sum up Kurt's state of mind.)

[verdandil.livejournal.com]

Absolutely gorgeous; you paint such a vivd and detailed picture of Kurt's mindframe - I may have turned red at some point. The last line last line is so (dare I say it? I seldom use this word)... perfectly beautiful; it stole my heart (again).

[wowbright.livejournal.com]

Sorry to make you turn red! (Or maybe not, I can't decide.)

And I am so (and pleasantly) surprised how people have reacted to that last line -- I really wasn't sure at all about writing it.

(I actually looked up Ohio earthquake history when I wrote that to see if Kurt might actually have any frame of reference for this image, because I couldn't keep it if he didn't, you know? And, as long as he was in town, he should have experienced at least one earthquake, maybe two - depending on the part of Lima where he lives - in his lifetime.)

Always lovely to hear from you!

[moriah17.livejournal.com]

I got an update that you updated yesterday and I thought to myself "Self, you should start letting yourself read past wowbright fics even though you fear having read them all and then not having more wowbright to read." So I'm combing through your journal and my bookmarks during my work breaks, including your reactions and comments. And firstly, I love this story. And I love (as always) your reasons for the way things are on the show. I've been so out of the fandom this season that I kinda can't wait to read your thoughts on it but I will also forever been hesitant to really catch up on everything you do.

Anyway, the main reason I'm commenting (other than to say I've been loving reading your backlog and to generally say "hi") is to say how much I love that you put so much research into your work. That last line truly was incredible and is even more so now that I see you checked to see if Kurt might have experienced an earthquake in Lima. Just. I can't with you. It's wonderful and I love it.

I'll try to comment on other things as I go but I'm also trying to keep to short breaks and since I clearly can't do short comments, no promises. Just know that I love every word I'm reading ❤

[wowbright.livejournal.com]

Hi!!!!!!!!!!! It's a joy to hear from you!

You don't need to worry about catching up with everything as the gigantic Karofsky etc fic is now in FINAL BETA and it has like 30 chapters and I will be posting it daily or every other day when I start. Which will hopefully be in the next month or so? (Not to pressure my betas, lol.)

I know I've thought I was close to done with that one before, but I really am now.

And thank you for the nice things you say about this fic. I had completely forgotten it was even here. I recently posted a masterlist and I don't think this is on it, so I'll have to add it. ♥

[moriah17.livejournal.com]

You just made my entire year! I was going to get around to gently asking you about the Karofsky fic and I now don't even have to!!! I'm thrilled to hear that it's so close to being ready to publish. And holy shit, 30 chapters?!?!! That's amazing! I'll be excited to read it, no matter when that time actually comes so no pressure on you or your betas :)

Glad I reminded you of this fic! Definitely needs to be on your master fic list so others can easily find it :)

[whiterose0328.livejournal.com]

Loved it! This has become head-canon now in why they don't sit next to one another. From now on, when I see them not sitting next to each other, I'll just think that they did another new sexual thing and need time to process it or they'll flashback and have an unwanted reaction. ^___^ I have no regrets!!!!!!!!!!!

[wowbright.livejournal.com]

I love your headcanon. I do believe I will adopt it for my own. It could inspire so many wonderful fics.

[sin-fuego.livejournal.com]

This is gorgeous. I love the sense of how overwhelming the after can be - like Burt said, once you start you're not going to want to stop - that neither boy can trust themselves to get too close in public.

So he keeps his chair far from Blaine's. Far enough so he doesn't, you know, accidentally crawl into Blaine's lap and dry hump him in front of all the New Directions.

Kurt, I would love to see that...with or without the New Directions.

[wowbright.livejournal.com]

Thanks for dropping by, and so glad it carried that sense for you. It's what I was going for, so it's nice to know it worked.

Well, Kurt almost dry-humped that chair in last week's episode - it's just one step away from almost dry-humping Blaine.

[midlifecrisses.livejournal.com]

Perfect explanation is perfect - TBH I probably wouldn't be able to stop myself from dry humping Blaine either.

[wowbright.livejournal.com]

Heehee! I'm glad you enjoyed it. <3