I have all the feels

[wowbright]

Because of this ...



Dance With Somebody, 3.17

When an episode of Glee really hits me, I don't fall asleep until really late and then I wake up really early. So I'm writing this on five hours of sleep, and it's pretty random. It's nothing brilliant likecrown_of_weeds or calanthe_b would write, so go there if you're looking for insight.

First off, as I told lavender_love00 this morning, I had a dream last night that Darren Criss was over at my house (didn't look like my house), on my computer and leaving fannish comments everywhere about last night's episode. Smart, analytical, impassioned fannish comments. He was using my accounts at first, but then he created his own. He was pretty much just smart-gushing about/dissecting Klaine and the episode and the characters' motivations and talking about his headcanon (you know, the stuff we do), and ... not telling anyone who he was.

I thought of posting, "I'm sitting here watching Darren Criss anonymously fan-flail about Glee," but then I thought he might feel a little betrayed by that, so I didn't. I just planned on privately messaging anxioussquirrel about it, instead. And then probably the rest of the universe.

I know the reason it was Darren and not Chris in my dream is that there is no way I could have been so calm about Chris being in my house. But Darren was apparently a friend of a friend, or one of my cousins (I have like 30 if you just count the first-gen ones, it's hard to keep track, new ones are popping up all the time), or something.

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So I’m kind of excited about not one, but two Kurt bedroom scenes in this week’s episode, because I’ve had so many unanswered questions about the layout raised by previous views of it, and I get obsessive about adhering to the canon layout and decoration in my fic.

However, I also kind of hate that I’m going to have to watch both of those Kurt bedroom scenes over and over again, because I’m not sure I can afford that much Kleenex.

lavender_love00 has already pointed out that Kurt still has his prom queen scepter and crown. I can't believe I missed that. Okay, I can, because MIKE O'MALLEY.

I might need to revise part of a couple scenes in my 8-million page fic that is oh-so-close to being done (damn work and health insurance applications) based on that new piece of information. Or I might just need to leave it be so that the fic sees the light of day before I'm 60 (which is a long time off, in case you're wondering).

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I have watched this episode only once, so naturally I didn't catch even a quarter of what was going on. Truly random notes (based on my Twitter - I tweet nonsensical comments during the episodes because I have no one to flail with other than my cat, and she does not flail):

• Thrilled that "I Wanna Dance With Somebody" was a Brittana song. I have a very fond memory of serenading my girlfriend with that on the bus in college (she pretended to hate Whitney, but she loved when I sang it ♥). (Oh, I'm a girl which is why I am appreciating the Sapphic resonance of this performance and its applicability to my life.)
• So did Teen Jesus and Quinn sing a song romanticizing adultery?
• Mike O'Malley started me sobbing, Chris Colfer continued me on it, and the look on Darren Criss' face made it turn into a snot fest.
• The Puck bromance scene. The glittery gift bags! Puck, I love you! Fandom is so right about you being comfortable in your own skin.
• After Kurt and Blaine talked in Emma's office, and she gave them that terrible "brutally honest" advice (but I tip my hat off to her for pointing out that she knows nothing about couples' counseling), I was kind of hoping she'd be brutally honest with Will. Instead, she was just honest. There you go, Emma, being nicer to Will than I want, and making me think that you two actually do love each other, even if Will is terrible at showing it, and really needs to go into some counseling of his own (without you as the counselor, dear).
• I can't even talk about Kurt and Blaine, except to say that they were so teenagery. (Okay, no, adults make all the same mistakes that they do here.) I love how Kurt was self-centered and Blaine was non-communicative, because that's how they are (and frankly, those things attract them to each other). And I love that these things became problems, because that is what happens in relationships. And I liked that they didn't have huge personality transformations in order to work it out (or really any - wow Kurt, Blaine's going to visit you every weekend? - except you know what, I bet Blaine would rather visit Kurt in New York than the other way around, and that's why Kurt's self-centeredness is not usually a problem for Blaine). Love does not depend on people being perfect.

Comments

[likeasouffle.livejournal.com]

I finally managed to see the episode this evening and then came straight here to read your post. OMG Blaine cried like three times. I wish he was real so I could give him a hug. Darren did such an excellent job. I wuv him.

I had accidentally spoiled myself beforehand about Kurt texting someone and Blaine accusing Kurt of cheating, and I was like "Oh Blainers, don't be a dick." But in the context of the episode I really felt for both Kurt and Blaine, which is fantastic. They both felt like good guys even while they were making each other unhappy.

Ok, the douchiest thing Blaine did was probably announcing to the whole glee club that he felt like he'd been cheated on. NOT COOL. But other than that.

I love that Kurt brought up that Blaine had done the same thing with Sebastian. They both felt flattered and liked the attention, but they both feel kind of left out when the other is getting that attention. And yet those left out feelings aren't really a big deal in the end because what's important is the two of them together. Kurt never really blew up at Blaine about Sebastian (beyond a slightly annoyed "how often do you talk?") and Blaine only blew up at Kurt because he was actually upset about Kurt leaving for a year. It seems to be implied that extracurricular flirtations aren't really enough to phase them, and I LOVE that.

Scheduled make outs. Haha. I can totally see them scheduling makeouts. Every Tuesday after school because the house is empty for two hours, for example. Because Kurt's dad taught him that "If we don't schedule it, we don't hang out, and if we don't hang out, our lives go right by each other." Scheduling is super important to the Hummels.

I love that Burt picked up Kurt's prom queen scepter when he said he might want to keep some stuff.

The a cappella song at the beginning was a great arrangement, and Kurt's song was fantastic. I could listen to him sing forever.

Eeehehehe Blaine suggested skipping glee to run off and have sexytimes. How much do I love that? :D

Oddly, every time Darren has shown up in my dreams, he's been kind of a jerk. Not sure why that would be, since I generally think if him as sweet, hilarious, and gracious. WTF subconscious? WTF?

Do you want me to make you screencaps of the bedroom scenes?

I also really like that Kurt and Blaine didn't have to change themselves in order to work out their issues. (Well, Kurt is going to work on not snapping his fingers at waitstaff, but other than that.)

I'm sure I had more to say but I don't remember right now. Maybe I'll get back to you when I rewatch.

Edit: Oh, and you know how Rachel was named after a Friends character? I feel like she and Chandler must have been separated at birth. LOL.

[wowbright.livejournal.com]

Okay, I'm pretty sure your reaction to my reaction was longer and more well-informed than my reaction. I love reading what you have to say; when I don't have anything to say in a given week, could I just write "I have nothing to say" and you'd still give me your awesome and well-informed opinion in response?

Yes, Blaine's song was douchey. He shouldn't be taking relationship advice from his girl Rachel (although Kurt apparently should, huh). (Okay, I know that Rachel didn't TELL Blaine to do that, but it was a Rachel/Finn kind of thing to do.)

Ah, crap, I have to go to watch Battlestar Galactica now. More later!

[wowbright.livejournal.com]

I felt for both of them through the whole episode. At both of the, I kept thinking, "Don't do that! I totally understand why you're doing that." Until it got to the part where they both did the right thing and communicated. I know some people thought the conflict should have been dragged out, but how it happened felt very real to me. I think it would have been hard for either of them to hold on so strongly to the idea of being wronged.

Oh, and now i have to catch the bus. This is going to be a serial response.

[wowbright.livejournal.com]

Extracurricular flirtations: I'm still waiting to see what happens if those flirtations start happening with someone they *both* like. Um, but, yeah, I guess that's probably not going to happen in canon. Guess I'll have to write fic about that ad infinitum.

I accidentally got spoiled on Kurt's song and that really took some of the steam out of it for me. When I get spoiled on songs, I end up imagining what the scene, choreography and interpretation will be like (even when I try not to), and am always jarred by any differences, even if my imagined version is no better. I hope I can get lost in it when I rewatch, because I LOVE his singing in general.

The opening number was mind-blowing. I couldn't help singing along, and it was warm outside and the windows were open, so all my neighbors got to enjoy that. I have rewatched it a couple times even though I haven't rewatched the whole episode yet (work!), and have caught some nice snippets of Kurt's voice, including his appropro solo lines, which I missed the first time around because I couldn't shut up. (Sorry, or not sorry, but that album was a big thing to me when it came out. I was in the sixth grade all-county chorus and our car full of girls would sing and sing to Whitney Houston on the way to rehearsals.)

You know I will never say no to your screencaps. Never ever.

I didn't realize Rachel had been named after the Rachel from friends. Are their last names the same, too? That would be hilarious, but probably not the case.

I am completely in favor of scheduled makeouts. Maybe that's the relationship advice that Kurt can give back to Rachel. Actually, it seems in high school that unscheduled makeouts might be difficult to come by, what with parents and families and all.

I missed Burt picking up the prom queen scepter. Okay, that needs to go in the list of fics I want to write.

[likeasouffle.livejournal.com]

LOL, if you didn't have anything to say and therefore didn't give me anything to respond to, I'd probably just flail about how cute Blaine was or something.

Interesting that you call Rachel Blaine's girl. I've kind of been thinking of Rachel as Kurt's girl and Brittany as Blaine's girl. Heh. No real reason, just Blaine and Brittany seem to have been hanging out a lot in the background and songs. Also Sugar. Also, did you see the Evil Death Glare Blaine gave Rachel in Big Brother during the NCIS dead body scene? Like "YOU ARE SO ANNOYING I CAN'T BELIEVE I THOUGHT YOU WERE HOT WHEN I WAS DRUNK THAT TIME."

I'm so glad the conflict wasn't dragged out. Yes the whole problem began due to a lack of communication, but A) not communicating doesn't really make a good story long term, and B) Kurt and Blaine are generally one of the most stable relationships on the show, and I'd hate to see that screwed up by assumptions and secrets. And a whole week of that kind of tension would have sucked.

PLEASE DO WRITE FIC ABOUT FLIRTING. Hi, yes, I'm ok with that idea. I don't know how you feel about Chandler, but he has the potential to be adorable and fun, and Blaine hasn't met him yet. What if they meet and Blaine thinks he's adorable?! And then EVERYONE gets to flirt ALL the time! :D

Interestingly I have liked Kurt's song less on rewatchings. I feel like his highest notes were a lot weaker than they could have been, and something about his arm movements feels fake to me. Hm.

I'm not a fan of How Will I Know in particular but I LOVED the arrangement, and that it's something a real glee club might actually do (no instruments but a bass drum, if I recall correctly). I always love Glee's a cappella arrangements. ♥ ♥

I don't have time to do screencaps today, but I will later this week. :)

One time Shelby asked Rachel where her name came from and she said "My dads were big Friends fans." The Friends characters are called Rachel Green and Chandler Bing. I don't remember what Glee Chandler's last name is, but he said it, and it's definitely not Berry (or Bing).